Itís actually a rather saddening story for now
Iíd be in and out of hospital for the rest of my days,
still my father thought it hilarious, how,
when I was first hospitalised I ran away,
on my first escorted walk in the grounds,
through a field and over a busy motorway
and up a serpentine trainline to the station
from which I made it to Scotland by train,
thinking thereíd be a different jurisdiction -
but oh how my athletic efforts were in vain!
The police found me wandering that other nation
and took me south of the border again!
Iíd been put under a curse unbeknownst to me...
forced to abide by the stringent rules,
I sat back in hospital writing poetry
in a waiterís pad, inventing brave new schools,
smoking on the banks of the Styx of sweet tea,
calling the conspiracy of doctors fools!
I scored a question mark on the musical scales
in my writing, in that place so clean,
such a sterile-surfaced Hell, run by females,
while Rachelís party far away on the green
summit of Parliament Hill went down with pale ales
and left me to dream of the space in-between.
Iíve got a degree since then. My feeling is
that the ill are capable of increased lucidity
but I rue the new remit: not to dream with open eyes,
nor await the future with rapt uncertainty,
not to plug my senses in the mains, but de-stigmatise
mental illness. It doesnít come naturally.
John F B Tucker
If you have any
thoughts on this poem, John F.B. Tucker would be pleased to hear them.